For the last 2.5 years, we've been blessed with this amazing experience. A farm, 10 acres of green to roam, to grow things, to enjoy. We raised a steer, who is now in the freezer. We raised chickens, for both meat and eggs. Ducks, turkeys, guinea fowl. Goats and sheep, and horses...because what kid doesn't want a horse? And it's been awesome. We've loved it.
So when I tell people we're moving, invariably they ask "Why?" "If you love it, why leave?". Well, because it's time. God said so. He made it very very clear that He has something different planned now, and I have to trust that His plans are greater than mine.
Because I DID have plans. 3 months ago, we were planning where to put the fences, to keep the chickens out of the garden. I was poring over seed catalogs. And I was waiting anxiously for the VBS emails to start! I do love VBS. And then...it became glaringly obvious that Steves health was getting worse. And one day...he said "I can't keep doing this". And I'd been waiting for that for years, and seeing it coming faster and faster for the last months, and yet it was a shock in some ways. Suddenly, this enormous change that we had always talked about as "someday" was "now". "NOW"!!
And so, we're following Him. Clinging to the knowledge that He has gone before us, and laid His plans, and that He has something else awesome planned for us. Because He always has. 2.5 years ago, when it became glaringly obvious that we were going to lose the house, I broke down in tears. "Why, God? We had it so good here!". And He let me mourn, and blessed us with something even better.
And just over 7 years ago, we were told that Steve would probably never walk or work again, and DEFINITELY never have children again. And not only did God let him walk and work again, but He has blessed us with 2 more adorable miracles since then!!
So I know that He will give us His best, which is all I can ever want. And yet, I don't think He minds us mourning, either. Because it's hard to let go of the future in my head, you know? And yet, I'm not losing anything, because I'm winning so much. I'm anxious to get started on this adventure He has for us, and see what awesome gifts He has planned! I have already seen so many...a huge lessening of Steves stress. His ability to really interact with the children again, since he's less stressed, and less exhausted. Friends, old friends and new, coming to lift us and carry us and help us through.
Walk with us through this journey, and we'll see what He has planned, and you can share in the rejoicing, ok? And maybe some mourning along the way.